Everyone else, please, refrain from making any type of comment. This was really meant for one person and she knows who she is. Why I didn't just privately do this....hell if I know. I just couldn't bring my self word it as if it were.
Apologizes too the random order of thoughts.
I should've known. I should've fucking known it'd be to far, even with the lack of signs. But no, I just had to go to far again. Stupid me.
I should've known such a line would go to far. Even though it was you who said "nothing really bothers me anymore."
Lies. There's always a breaking point. And I should've known it'd be at that one word.
Of course I fucking find the line when I let the personal filter down. That's when it always happens. That's when it happened a year ago in my.chatroom, that's when it happened months ago during that online card game.
Does it look like I want to keep fucking up like this? Figure out why I've never accepted any more invites to said game? It's because I'll probably just let loose again and fuck up again.
I can't take this strife in our friendship, and I can't bear any thought of being the one who made you feel such a way that ends up leading to this. I just want you to be comfortable around me,
Loosing you would be devastating to me. Right now, I just want to know if you're even close to willing to try and forgive me.
If you feel like it, note me. Just know that you horn-dog is only hoping for forgiveness.
Listening to: the ambience
Eating: myself emotionally